You did all the right things!

You took on the responsibility as a child, not because you wanted to but because you had to! You had to figure it all out! You had to have it all together! You had to be serious! You had to be perfect! You had to put your feelings aside so you can survive one more day! You had to hustle! You had to keep pushing! And all of this has served you well until you started feeling bleh with life. It has served you well until you lost the playfulness that made life fun and made life worth living.

I am ready for the Twist

Imagine this...

Waking up like a little kid excited to start your day because you are curious what you'll encounter. Little kids naturally live in the realm of unpredictability more than the realm of predictability, because they aren't holing onto baggage or onto past wounding! They are are still open to life. They are not assuming they know everything because they don't and neigther do we, but we like to pretend we know. In fact, the most successful people I know, some of which are my mentors keep this childlike wonder and this is what keeps them open to life. And it is the reason for not only their physical but also their spiritual success!

Children aren't trying to control, analyze, plan, or figure out every single aspect of their life. They allow themselves to play and have fun. They don't perform and posture until we teach them to! They don't try to be perfect, have it all figured out, or change aspects of themselves until we teach them to! So what I want to ask you now is: where have you been in the energy of posturing, controlling, overanalyzing, performing, proving, figuring out energy? This is what is actually zapping the aliveness from your life and leaving you feeling like a stale potato chip or better yet since we are health girlies, leaving you feeling like a stale, mushy Apple!

If you’ve been feeling stale...

You're stuck in routine. Nothing feels wrong really but your energy feels stale and zapped. Everyday looks the same! Your interactions look and sound the same. Conversations with the people you love have embarrassingly become predictable. You can predict how your husband will react, what he will say, what you will feel at any given moment, what your day will look like. It feels like you’re in some kind of apocalypse where you’re reliving the same day over and over again. And for some of us it’s not an apocalypse, we are living inside a beautiful dream but it still feels so predictable that we are bored of having the same dream every night. You may tell yourself, “I have a good life” “I should be grateful and sit my ass down” "I should be content with the routine!" "I have a man who loves me, who’s devoted and committed to me, who works hard to provide for our family."

OR

"I am living my dream life, I am in what I once prayed for, I should be grateful." Now all of this is true. You may have a great life, you may have an amazing man by your side, you may have your dream house, but what if there’s more? Not necessarily forcing anything to manifest but what if there’s more to feel, more playfulness, more fun to be had, more to explore, more to experiment with, more colors and glitter to be added to your life! And I get it if glitter isn’t your thing! It doesn’t have to be. It wasn’t mine for a very long time. Until I looked at how stale, boring, sterile my closet and my life had gotten. I call this beige syndrome! Don't get me wrong, I love beige, it goes with everything, but sometimes we need a little more glitter/color to spice up our life.

What I realized was that...

I had been making decisions for my life on autopilot from survival, based on what will keep me safe, what will keep me comfortable, what will keep me HIDDEN, what will keep people from noticing me, what will give me certainty. I realized it was all rooted in FEAR! I started using logic so much more to make sensible decisions, took on responsibility from a very young age because I had to, had to have it all figured out(or at least look like I did), I had to perform, to prove, to numb my feelings and what I really wanted, I had to dissociate from my body to survive another day. I had to shove the playful little girl in me down because what she wanted didn’t matter when I was in survival

She wanted to play, she wanted to have fun, she wanted to travel, she wanted to run around for no reason, she wanted to dance, she wanted to love freely without holding any of her love back because she didn’t consider getting abandoned, being too much or too little. She just was! She just is. She IS fun embodied. She doesn’t have to pretend she doesn’t have to posture, perform or prove. She allows her emotions to come through and to be processed in the moment, and she starts with a clean slate. She doesn’t hold onto grudges or suppresses her emotions. She embraces her creativity, her desires and doesn’t make her self expression bad or wrong. She doesn’t care what other people think because that’s not her compass! Her priority isn’t pleasing other people or proving anything. It’s simply to have fun in life as she follows divine nudges.

This isn't about leaving all responsibilities behind

Or quitting your job, abandoning your current life. This isn't about instant gratification. It’s about bringing more fun, play, curiosity, and audacity into your current one. And the kind of fun and play I am referring to here is the one that brings your soul to life and makes you feel alive. Because when you feel alive and energized, that energy ripples out into everything else in your life whether it’s your relationship, health, business, or work. If you feel like your energy has been zapped, your daily life is lacking aliveness and play, it is most likely because you have completely disconnected from your inner little girl! This is the inner work inside this container. If you are ready to have a cozy, alive, playful and fun winter this is the container to be in. I am so excited to have you and so excited to play together!

I am Ready to Play

We Begin October 5th

This conatiner will be a mix of live transmissions as well as recorded recalibrations!

Lets Play